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I am not so happy with my performance on my first day of judgment. I became more nervous and less confident that I would succeed in that ordeal. Actually, I think I will fail. All the while, I thought it will be much easier than the second trial. But definitely, I was wrong. How I wish I did not become over confident before that day. Now, I feel guilty for underestimating its weight and overestimating my capacity. If only I could turn back time, I would really prepare for it more.

But the positive side of it is that I am reminded of the importance of humility. Now that I think I have failed that trial, I will try harder and exert my best effort for my second day of judgment. I will also try my very best to improve on my weak areas during my first day of judgment. So that when the second trial comes, I will be more equipped to face it.

Now I am worried. May God give me a chance. If I succeed in my first day of judgment, I would really not brag about it. And if I succeed in my second trial also, I will still not brag about it. May God really give me a chance. May He recognize my effort and my noble desire for opting to face these trials. May He also give me more strength, humility, intelligence, and alertness.

Please God, give me a chance. Please.